Wednesday, April 1, 2009

4w, 2d: I covet your prayers.

We haven't told anyone in real life this yet, but I am pregnant, 4 weeks, 2 days today, due December 7, 2009. I am only telling you guys now because this baby's life is possibly over already and we really covet your prayers right now.

Here's the story:
For the past few days I have had a sore throat. It wasn't too awful and I figured I would eventually just get over it. Last night, however, I was exhausted (normal for pregnancy) and after laying down for a while, I realized that I had the chills, and probably a fever. My temperature was 99.7 at that point. I took two tylenol immediately because I knew that the fever was just beginning and would be going up soon, and anything over 101 is not good for small fetuses. An hour later my temperature was up to 100.2. An hour after that, and right before I went to sleep, it was 99.7 again, so I felt that I could go to bed relaxed about the fever being controlled. I woke up at 3 am to take more tylenol and my temperature was 100.3 at that time. I took tylenol and went back to bed. When I woke up at 7, the fever was back down to 99.3, which was great. I felt like the danger had passed and I would be getting better today. I stayed home from work because I wanted to make sure I was completely better (and to not get others sick). I went back to sleep for a few hours and woke up to a 99.6 temperature at 10:30. I really had to go to the bathroom, so I went, and I quickly noticed brown blood in my panty liner. There was some when I urinated and a little more when I wiped. Not good.

I immediately called my nurse at the Ob/Gyn's office, and told her about the fever and the blood. She mentioned the word "ectopic," "no ultrasound yet, it's too early," and "quant hCGs." I was told to immediately go in and get my HCG levels measured at the lab, then come straight to the Ob/Gyn office to get my Rhogam shot. Poor left arm.

While at my Ob/Gyn appointment, the nurse practioner I saw attempted to give me hope, but also mentioned "ectopic," "the next time this happens," and "recurrent miscarriages." Not good.

Basically, if my hCG levels don't double by Friday, this is definitely a miscarriage (although I could see this playing out before then). Will you guys pray for us? I'm glad that this is happening earlier in the pregnancy than last time, but we were already counting on this Little One and had gotten our hopes up majorly (at least I had). Pray for our peace and that we would be able to continue to rely on God as our hope and our future.



Jessie said...

I am not just blowing sunshine at you when I say that a little brown spotting does not equal doomed pregnancy. So many people spot early on while the baby is implanting nice and deep in the uterus. It's brown blood, which means it's old blood so it's probably from the implantation that happened days ago. I know it's so hard not to think the worst, but I'm praying and being positive for you right now. (And I have no idea why'd they even mention an ectopic pregnancy at this point. Seriously!)

Liz said...

Oh'll be in my thoughts and prayers much today...I pray you don't have to go through another miscarriage and all the emotional "junk" all over again! The Lord is in control....we can rest in Him about that!

Praying much for you...

Kate said...

Abbie, I'm praying for both of you right now. I heard something great at church this Sunday. God is too big to be outmaneuvered, too good to be unkind, and too wise to be outsmarted. Our God has a plan even when we don't understand it.

I can't wait to see you in April!

amy said...

I'll be praying for you and baby! Let me know if you would like me to come visit to listen, talk, take a break from serious stuff to have some fun, or anything else. Call me anytime.


P.S. I also want you to know that I will honor your right to choose who knows of your situation by not sharing with the rest of our family or any IRL friends of ours.

Brooke said...

I am so sorry you are stressed out. I cant imagine your worry and dissapointment but I must say I think you have allot of hope and a future to look forward to. I will pray for peace and safety for your little bean. I know that you will worry no matter what bc of what happened with Max. I just pray that you wont have to experience that sadness again. ((hugs))

Shaina N said...

I think Jessie's right... no reason to panic quite yet. You're very early and it could just be old implantion bleeding.

However, you and the baby and your husband are deep in my thoughts and prayers. I read this earlier at work and couldn't comment, but I've been praying all day! Keep us updated.

Candace said...

Praying... very hard for you. You have been in my thoughts and prayers for a while now. I found your blog after I had my own miscarriage back in the beginning of January. Please, I know it is hard, but try to keep the positive thoughts in, and the negative out. God is good all the time and we do not understand the reasons things happen, but I am here to tell you first hand, GOD is good! My heart is with you... :)

joy! said...

Abbie, may the peace that passes all understanding flood your heart and mind. You are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Hon, I know what this means to you - of course we'll pray for you, that God will lend you His strength, no matter what happens. He is merciful, and He loves you - just remember that.


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