Wednesday, April 15, 2009

6w, 2d (or maybe not): My Little Yolk Sac

This morning at the ultrasound, there was a gestational sac and inside of it there was a yolk sac. Not a fetal pole or an embryo. Great news if I'm 5 1/2 weeks, not so great news if I'm really 6 weeks (like my temperatures lead me to believe). I have to go back in a week and see if there is a heartbeat then. If there is, great! I'm a little behind where I thought I was. If there's not; bad news #2.

I chickened out of asking for a print out of my yolk sac. I weighed my options between sounding insane for asking for a picture of a ball of cells and having a picture to hold onto once we figure out this pregnancy is not lasting, and I decided that since I wanted to come back in a week, I might as well try not to look insane. Maybe they'll give me one next week, if I haven't miscarried by then.

Please pray for my baby. And for me. I didn't sleep last night and I'm exhausted.

P.S. No more quants unless I start bleeding again. I guess there's the great news that I'm not even spotting right now, but since I did carry Max for four to six weeks after he died, I'm not super confident about my body's ability to get rid of a baby that's not alive...

P.P.S. I'm not sure that I'm strong enough emotionally to deal with this again so soon. Please, please pray for me.

P.P.P.S. I did get really, really sick this morning (I think it was sheer will that held my cereal down), which is great news. And now I'm realizing that my appetite is finally back. New pregnancy symptoms are always welcome.


Liz said...

Still praying oh so much for you...I know how awful I would feel if there was even the POSSIBILITY of losing a second baby so soon after the first...but I'm praying that this is not the case for you!

Praying always,

Jessie said...

You and your little baby are in my prayers. With the twins, one baby had a heartbeat at 6 weeks and the other did not. But at 8 weeks, we had two beating hearts. At 6 weeks, I think the fetal pole is like the size of a grain of rice! So tiny that it can be hard to acurately see it on an ultrasound.

(If you can't tell, I refuse to entertain the thought of this baby not making it. :) )

Crysi said...

We went in for our first u/s at what I thought was 6 weeks (I had been using OPKs) and there were just two gestational sacs. Scott wasn't worried, but inside, I was freaking out that I had 2 blighted ovums or something. Nope, I was just 2 weeks off! Still not sure how that happened with a positive OPK, but I was horribly sick that weekend. I had to wait 3 more weeks for another u/s and there they were, two little beans.

JReus said...

We're still praying, Abbie.
Love, Jen

M said...

I am so sorry you didn't see a fetal pole.
You and your little baby will be in my prayers!
It is totally common to be off a few days! Sometimes little beans implant late!
Hang in there!!

joy! said...

Continuing to pray.

Dia said...

1 Corinthians 10:13 (New International Version)

13No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Charity said...

I thought of you this morning and prayed for you, Abbie.
Continuing to lift you up to the Lord.

Dia (again!) :) said...

Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding NO ONE can fathom.
He gives STRENGTH to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who *hope in the Lord* will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:28-31

<3 love you & praying for you today

Candace said...

Abbie... I understand your anxieties! I miscarried back in January and we got pregnant almost immediately after(no... we were not supposed to, and no, we were not trying...) and after all the blood tests and scary stuff, it was hard to deal with each new appointment. Even when you are tracking everything so carefully, it is easy to be off by a few days, so as easy as it is to say... relax. Stress is the ONE thing you do not need right now. If you are feeling sick, it is likely morning sickness, and not nerves. Think positive... you have to have faith my dear, and in 9 months... we will be reading about your precious little one. God is good all the time! Much love!