Friday, February 6, 2009

Achy breaky heart

I'm missing my Max so much today. I'm not sure what the trigger was - maybe reading about lots of babies on blogs. Also, MckMama had a sweet post about loving being a mom and I think that kinda pushed me over the edge. Crying at work is always fun. Luckily, my desk faces away from everyone else, so as long as no one comes up to me, I'm okay. Except for the whole heart breaking over and over thing. How do I keep going when I hurt so much?

5 comments:

Crysi said...

Because it will get better. Yes, you'll still miss him, but it won't hurt as bad. Time will dull the pain.

Much love and hugs.

Candace said...

I understand some of what you are going through. I just recently had a miscarriage back in the first part of January as well, and know the hurt that has come along with this. I am blessed to have had a perfectly healthy baby girl, but it makes the hurt no less. I am praying for you and know that you will have a baby in your arms before you know it.

Brooke said...

Oh Abbie I am so sorry you are stuggling. I dont know what its like to lose a baby but I do know what its like to miss the baby you never held.I pray that we both have a little one in our arms and know that you will see Max again. Jesus must have known how sweet he was going to be. Too sweet for this world. ((hugs))

dauthi said...

I'm sorry, hon. It will get better, even if it seems to take forever to do so.

Christina

Jessie said...

I am so sorry to hear about Max. I have been through two miscarriages, and I remember how awful they were. Both of my miscarriages were missed miscarriages where no baby developed. I think it's an especially hard thing to process after being blissfully pregnant for weeks, and then getting the shocking news at a routine ultrasound. I think it's a great thing that you're blogging through this. I also found great support online as no one I knew IRL had experienced a miscarriage. It's hard, but it really does get better with time. You'll always miss your first baby, but the pain won't be so suffocating.