Tuesday, May 26, 2009

36 weeks, 12 weeks

Max would have been 36 weeks today - can you even believe it? His due date is coming up quickly here. I wonder if the size of my stomach would have blown my mind away. I wonder if he would have been long and lean like his daddy or small like his mommy. I wonder what it would be like to be unbelievable uncomfortable right now, with little feet pushing into my ribs.

Olivia would have been 12 weeks yesterday, according to my original due date - I can't believe it's only been 8 weeks since I found out about her, it seems like a lifetime. I can't believe my first trimester would have been just about over now. I wish I could get to see her one more time.

I also wonder - when Olivia's due date in December comes around, will I be mourning or rejoicing?


Shaina N said...

I know how hard it is. I know how much the mourning hurts. I continue to think, and pray for you, several times a day. My heart hurts for you and your husband. I pray you are able to find a doctor who will support you, and will see 2 miscarriages as a problem, and be willing to work with you. Keep your head up darling!

Still praying,

Brooke said...

Sorry you cannot hold your little ones. I hope that on Olivia's due date that you are rejoicing for a new and healthy life and not just missing her.