"Lord, I am willing to-
Receive what you give,
Lack what you withhold,
Relinquish what you take."
Am I willing to receive suffering and grief?
Am I willing to lack living children?
Am I willing to relinquish another child to Him?
Would I be more willing if I could make my heart understand that He alone is the giver of good things (Luke 11:9-13, James 1:17) and that my trials are joy, because they are creating perseverance in me (James 1:2-4)?
These and many more questions on my heart today as I start on the first round of injectible treatments.