Thursday, October 15, 2009

National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Day

I had a rather peaceful day today, which was not what I expected on my first October 15 on this side of pregnancy loss.

Last October 15, I took my first positive pregnancy test, and knew the pure bliss of motherhood for the next 8 weeks. What a joy those 8 weeks were. If only I could go back...

On December 9 my husband and I found out that our baby had not formed properly and that we would not be bringing him home in June. We named him Max Samuel.

Then in the end of March, we learned that we were expecting another baby. We had the great joy of seeing her several times via ultrasound. Her little heart beat for three and a half weeks, and then she was gone. Her name is Olivia Faith.

Thank you all for lighting your candles in memory of my babies and of yours. I felt at peace knowing that others were remembering my babies and knowing that I wasn't alone today in mourning. We won't forget them!

I love you, Livie and Max! Mommy misses you so much!

9 comments:

Lizaveta said...

Thinking of you tonight...

Amanda Hoyt said...

In loving memory of your sweet babies.
Hugs,
Amanda

Staci said...

I was thinking of you and your sweet babies yesterday as well. I hope things are going well for you these days. Are you still subbing?

Hamesy said...

Abbie, I pray for you and your little ones (those who have already passed and those yet to come) every week at church, and in between Sundays whenever I think of you. I'm so glad that God's peace brought you though what could have been a really rough day.

Love,
Amy

Jennifer said...

Hi Abbie,
I'm glad I checked your blog today. Praying for you and Max and Olivia.
Love, Jen

Jennifer said...

And Jonathan!

Amanda said...

Hi... I have been trying to be patient and ask you gently... but now that you are ignoring me I am just going to come straight out and ask.

What did I do for you to dislike me so much? You had me on your blogroll. You removed me. You used to come to my blog. NOw you flat out ignore me if I come to yours.

I cant for the life of me figure out what I did!

I was hoping we coule be friends... is that not the case?

Many blessings-
Amanda

Anonymous said...

Hi! I don't even remember how I found your blog, but I have been reading it almost from the beginning... I just wanted to tell you that I miss the updates and I hope all is going well. I have been praying for you!
Take care..
Hilary

mini pendant said...

It is a sad day for all the lost little ones.